I have found very little to blog about lately, even though there are huge things happening. A Presidential campaign, a couple of wars, an economic crisis. But I find myself muted because I am in shut down mode, which happens when I don’t want to face the inevitable frustration that all three things will bring.
I certainly don’t feel any qualification to share any insight into the financial crisis. I think it is this that has me in a stunned silence, and I can only shake my head in dismay as I hear the Religious Right air and post and write blame pieces about every possible “them†which is responsible for this mess, and show that they are in total denial that Bush could have had anything to do with it, or seek to dismiss Bush’s role by obscuring it with a plethora of other “thems†to blame that relegate Bush’s role to just one among many.
The Presidential campaign holds very little interest for me, only the end result is what I await, and the only thing I find encouraging lately is that since the crisis broke, Obama’s lead in swing states has widened. I guess this partially explains why the right is so desperate to pin the blame on all “thems†which are not “usâ€.
I am not filled with confidence that Obama winning will bring stability, but that at the very least, show the door to the parties which stood by, and even jumped in and aided and abetted the bubble ride that is now crashing and burning. Bush brought all the corruption out of the woodwork and into government, inviting them in and appointing many of them to jobs (i.e. “favorsâ€). Ken Lay, Jack Abramoff, Alberto Gonzalez, and the supreme snake and corrupter and cynical manipulator, Karl Rove (now a political commentator for Fox, apropos). These people have to be swept out, and subsequently investigated and prosecuted to show that such politics has no place if we are to advance as any kind of a self-governing republic.
Of course, to top all of this, my exile from the church continues, and I feel like I have long since slipped into a similar state of stunned silence about that. I am not confident in any way at an emotional level. This matter seems to have taken on an apocalyptic sense for me. It seems that it would take nothing less than a spiritual tsunami to break down some doors and barriers so that some enclaves of God’s people might call me in. I must find the place where the lived politic of the alternative city of God is seriously sought by people committed to the alternative community that must exist to allow such a vision to thrive.