spiritual director looked him square in the eye and said, â€œThe antidote to exhaustion is wholeheartedness.â€
â€œYou are so tired,â€ continued the director, â€œbecause a good half of what you are doing has nothing to do with your true powers, or the place you have reached in your life. You are only half here, and half here will kill you after a while. You need something to which you can give your full powers.â€
In a hyperconnected, hyperdistracted world, the move toward balance is often just an attempt to answer the question that only wholeheartedness can actually resolve. â€œHalf hereâ€ cannot bring balance to the half that is â€œnot here.â€
Where is â€œa good half of youâ€ missing that needs something to which you can give your â€œfull powersâ€ with laser-like focus and whole-hearted commitment?
Yes, Jessie! This is key. â€œBalanceâ€ becomes the ultimate compromise. Radical presence, radical obedience, is often used as one side of the scale, and â€œrealityâ€ or â€œthe way it isâ€ is on the other. But is this OBEDIENCE? This is our lame excuse for â€œstruggling with itâ€. What we are saying at the root is that we donâ€™t intend to follow the radical path to which we are called. we have to â€œbalanceâ€ it.
â€œHalf hereâ€ suggests tome, that in our enthusiasm to adopt technology we work under this false reprioritization. We can â€œlive withâ€ whatever damaging effects a technology or usage of technology may cause, under the â€œbalancing actâ€ that sees relevance and â€œeffectivenessâ€ as the opposite weight on the scales. Iâ€™m back to the issue of worship and what we say about it when we put it online as I have seen it done. Thereâ€™s no question that many of these examples have â€œgood production valueâ€. Is that what makes it worship? ISTM that there is a hugely important ingredient to worship, which is attentiveness; to God, to one another, to our own â€œnoiseâ€ which we bring to the table.
Again, this is not any kind of encouragment to ignore social media. There are certainly social elements crucial to worship. And there are always â€œmediaâ€. But what expectation does the media or medium bring with it. What assumptions? And in paying attention to the â€œtwittersphereâ€, do we also allow our attention to be subdivided? So, far from being a call to turn our backs on social media in worship, this is a call to discernment about what worship is or becomes with any particular usage of certain tools or toolsets and the assumptions they bring with their usage.