Today I have found myself feeling more hopeful and confident than I’ve been in a while.  A doctor had given me a 4 week supply of Paxil back on Feb. 20th,  when I was having all kinds of back tightness and tightness in the lower chest and left side.  It seemed to keep in check a lot of feelings of depression,  but I always wonder about drug induced “equilibriums” like that.  I wonder what other kinds of impact or “flattening out” it causes,  and how that might affect creativity and energy,  all having to do with a certain intensity related to the emotions.  I’m glad I’m off of all that (now it’s just cold remedies for this cold that started out as a stomach virus,  and has since “gone to my head” with the runny nose and sinus congestion,  and tiring out after only 4 or 5 hours every day).  I got some positive feelings out of my meeting this morning (good possibility that I can do some things with some CBF folks)  and that perhaps things are heading in the right direction.