Yesterday morning was one of my toughest times since my unemployment began.  I even got in the car and drove over to Janet’s place of work ( a day care program at a Church) ,  and happened to arrive during nap time,  so I could sit there and tell her a little of the discouragement I was feeling. 

The night before,  as I was discouraged with the lack of movement in the Web project I thought may be able to get started and provide me with some work and money,  I was returning some of the books I had bought that I thought I could use to help me begin the project.  When I made the last stop at Borders,  I was back in the Web Development book section,  and began to look at the Cold Fusion MX Web Application Construction Kit,  and ended up buying it (with the usual intention of taking it back after perusing it for 2 or 3 weeks).  There has been so much use of Cold Fusion among web sites I have come into contact with in my efforts to “hook up” with some worthwhile possibilities for Online Theeological Community web work (such as with Sojourners,  the DaveRamsey.com interview,  and I also noticed that CBF online uses it,  as well as Associated Baptist Press).  Buying the book gave me a sense of “small steps” taken in the direction of doing something to move myself into a place where I can add some more “capabilities” and “competencies” to my arsenal. 

A guy from Atlanta also emailed me thsi morning and said that the CBF communication director had asked him to follow up with me,  after I emailed him  and the Associated Baptist Press guy yesterday,  hoping to keep them aware that I am still very much hoping to hook up with the CBF or similar “good Baptist” organizations (as opposed to the current SBC climate) to do some meaningful Web work.   I emailed him back and he called not long after that to set up a time for us to meet Saturday as he is visting his daughter who lives in Green Hills.  (9:00 Saturday morning).  This was a little lift for my spirits.  Now I am thinking about getting a shower and getting out,  maybe going by the Church and checking with Steve about what I can do to help him be able to updsate the Website.